Do not repeat chapters, for the ending of the story never changes!!
hope u n u n u will get the meaning n go care bout ur life more than mine. don't waste ur time bothering bout my business. u guys nvr let me move on, keep hindering me..keep making my life feel miserable..what more do u want from me? i'm trying to do my best here..i'm trying to go on with the next chapter..what u guys do will just make me start rebelling...it was not my fault..ask urself who made it worst...do not see me as urself..cuz i am not u..wise man say only fool rush in..u guys r sooo "good" in assuming.. don't think u r better than me, pot always say the kettle black..don't make me come to the edge of really hating n pushing everyone out of my chest...cuz i can plant those feeling..call me ungratefull...call me anything u want..who start it first n nvr want to stop? it's u n u n u..till when can i fly on my own wings? every bird has to fly n every rose has to die...if i am too different..i cant help myself becuz i've always been the blacksheep...n i nvr care about that..why am i angry, why am i so sensitive? because when the people who u love so much hurt u even a lil bit, the cut is deep...don't u know how much i love u? don't u know how much i adore u? how much i am willing to sacrifice my time, my strenght, my tears n my happiness for every one of u? i do not have money to help, but does money more valuable that all of that? can money make u happy? can money make u suddenly labelled as being very caring n responsible? no it takes more than that! after all i've helped, what do i get in return? nothing but tears, my own tears, tears of sadness..tears of being left behind, being the one who r the bad one, the ungrateful one, the rebelious one. did i ever complaint about it? no, never, cuz i did it sincerely..cuz u're nothing other than the person i love, the person i've cheerish since i know the world...
why as i grow up, as i strecthed my wings n try to fly on my own..u've changed..u make me cry everytime i think about many things..being angry at u, made me cry..why? because i love u..i love u n it hurts knowing the fact that u r the person who's hurting me the most n u're the person that start it all..u nvr know the real truth, u nvr know what i see from my eyes, what i feel from my heart..u nvr know how i elucidate my happiness...urs n mine n theirs could nvr be the same...my feelings, my thingking n my growing r different from u n theirs..please understand that...dont make me end up hating u n lost the love i've put in u...i always pray to the god to show me the best way, to make me stronger n to make all of u see what i see...am i that dirty in ur mind? have u ever see me soicializing? i nvr do things that u ever imagine...u nvr know bout my affair, u nvr ever see n know my comrades...u just assume n assume..what r u? a necromancer? forteller of future? a predictor? i beg u, please don't make me become what i nvr wish to be...don't start with me...it is not me, it is not my comrades, it is not my surrounding who depress me, who make me fail, who make me sick..it is u n u n u...i am like this..this is who i am..n i respectly know how u n u n u r...please...do not shorten my life by depressing me..
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