My eyes already swollen from 3 nights of crying..haha..yes i did cried but i managed to control it till tonight. i couldnt hold it anymore, i just started to cry n began to sob. i didnt care anymore if qeyla saw it or watever. she didnt ask y tho, good. cuz i'm confuse myself. heh. my eyes r throbbing n stinging really bad right now. i just..dont know anymore..i feel like giving up..but after all i've been thru, i cant..perhaps it was entirely my fault in the beginning, perhaps no chance would be given to me or perhaps i should just accept it. but will i b happy about it? i already knew the answer. n i also knew all the bad things that will be said to me n about me by the people i know dearly. in their eyes i am always the ungrateful one. one after another, it wont stop but keeps on building. with this rigid heart of mine, i've feel like giving up cuz it hurts way too much. i'm just different from others, i'm totally different. don't compare me with anyone n if u cnt accept me as who i am, dont act as u understand n care bout me. I can't dry my eyes, cuz they keep on refilling with the tears that I cry.
n i know for sure, in the morning my whole face will b swollen n my eyes will b puffy..i should hv nvr live,i'm just a burden to u mom n dad..i'm sorry